Am I too rigid and inflexible?

I want to change to a better person so so much but I find it hard.

I want to move on but why is it so difficult.

People have move through this garden, went pass the dark tunnel and found the light through to the other garden. Why am I still wandering on this flat ground.

I've never thought this would happen, I always thought nothing will influence me so much and I can do if I have the determination.

However, things seems to be different.

I know I made the decision, I bear the consequences. What happening could be karma.

I'm silly, reserved, sensitive and traditional.

I've never been the kind that let the feelings show.