It is a beautiful quality relationship where not every couple could or manageable to have.

Can I?

It's far, I can't see where the ocean ends.

I'm sorry, we are miles away.

It's hard to keep the heart from wandering

especially when you have all time alone.

Am I just running in a circled pathway all these years?

Is there an exit or a place to have break?

This is a challenge which I have committed in.

Independence is all I need,

to have my own enjoyable hobbies,

to not dependent on you for gratification.

Sleep tight and sound, Yilee

xoxo

Easter is coming.

This is what I did on my last weekend.

Had a after dinner-baking session with aunt.

Tada~ HOT CROSS BUNS!

Putting on the crosses, that's the sign, can't be without it isn't?

The end product is here! emmm, not too bad for the first attempt. Passed and can be improved. =)

I'm feeling a bit more free this year compared to the previous year. That's most likely because I'm not involved in too many club activities and less working hours lately. More time for myself, more time to relax and more time to sleep!

Also, the clock is ticking very slowly to me. I'm only back in Melbourne for nearly three weeks, i felt like two months. I just can't wait to finish the year and move on to the next stage. I think I had too much fun and enjoyed very much during my two months holiday in Malaysia. I'm still missing it and I wish I can have more!

Immature love says, I love you coz I need you.

Mature love says, I need you coz I love you.

6520 km ~ I'll conquer the distance.

Previous post was when I just started and joined in the team in my summer project.

Now, three weeks had past. Two more weeks to go and I'm done with it. Must admit that time is flying very quickly. I'm now quite use to the work, the duties and feeling happy on my progress thus far.

A few photos of my baking to share, food once again.

Cherry crumbled cake

Can u tell what biscuits are those? I love this cny cookie. Had a too big dream to make 'melt in your mouth' kuih bangkit, but failed. Although didn't get the texture I wanted it to be, I enjoyed the drawing session. =p

Sinfully rich dark chocolate cookies. One is definitely not enough.

Dear friends,

for those who having exams or in the last few weeks of the semester, good luck!

for those who having holidays, have fun!

It's the last month of the year, the best month of the year, the festive season where one festival come after another. Get ready for the parties and celebrations =D

missing you, I'll join the fun soon soon sooooooon!

A post from a few days ago.

Life is short. We have a lifespan. 365 days and you grow a year elder. 24 hours a day. 8 hours for sleep and 16 hours left.

Treasure and adore the people who are concern about you. In dealing with those who doesn't care about you, still be nice, give them your appreciation, not overdose, just at a basic dose.

Live a life. Party hard and work hard to achieve the goals in life.

Say No and say Bye to emo devil. It's all mentality, it's about the way you think. When you're sad, just think and see things in another way, when you're on another view, you'll feel better.

No one will like someone who is emo, please be cheerful, always keep a smile on the face and light up the life of the ones around.

A post for today.

Frustrated. I'd put my effort in, sourcing, researching, trying to make it nice, make it safe but things gone wrong at the end. Silly. Always need to lose something before realising on things.

Learned to trust my instincts. Previous bad feelings was right.

Learned to be wise and critical.

I've learned and grew wiser =) Another experience in life.

Current daily life on weekdays. Uni 9-5pm working on a research project, Antibacterial effect of human serum on Klebsiella Pneumoniae.

Was boring for the first day, second day and third day. Looking forward to the days in the lab when I actually do something and learn. Time to learn some new stuff. =) Another experience in life

Although boring but first week on board with the team was pretty relaxing. I wished it's like that all the time. The team are nice people, second day-someone brought banana cake, third day-someone brought momo's (Nepalese dumplings),fourth day -played princess Uno during lunchtime and had afternoon tea nearby.

Two very different offices I get to work in.

Research science based office this summer. Account department of a construction company last summer. Current one, I hear terms like samples, test, filters, broth, concentration...scientific terms. Previous one, I heard a lot of paying, money, invoices, tax, gst. Am I prepared to hear the scientific terms for the rest of my working life ? lol. Do I fit into that category?

Hopefully, I will gain a better insight on research and get to narrow down my options.

Lastly, law of attraction. I believe in you, please work for me.

In another weeks time, I will be having my first paper for this sem.

In another 17days, I will be done with all four papers, done with my second year in uni, and summer holidays begin.

I should be very happy to look forward for the holidays, just another two n half weeks of studies. However, im not feeling the excitement and happiness for the summer holidays at the moment even though it's three months of holidays.

This is due to the fact that I'm not entirely on holiday as I'm participating in either a research project or a summer program in a company, I'm expecting i'll be stressed on certain tasks I've to complete later on.

Sometimes, I wonder if all these are worthwhile, to participate in various activities/programs hoping for a better chance in future and sacrificing on others.

Am I overworking and neglected the things that cannot be picked up after it has pass, other more important things that have no point of return if we missed it?

To me, there are many more people that I want to treasure, they are in priority, it is impossible to foresee life or my future career, I shall focus and appreciate current things that lay right in front of my eyes.

There is always a need to balance. I should balance it right.

Time is really moving very quickly this year, roomie is graduating and going to leave =(

I will miss miss miss her so much, she has been like a sister to me, looking after me the younger one :)

She made me dance out of her boredom last night, not actual dance but gave me a good laugh =p

Have a look if u are interested =) who will be here next year in making the random things for laughs? D:

http://theuglydance.com/?v=uanxlnqern

Lastly, I need to control on two cases. I can do it if i think I can. Determination is all that I need. I will and I can control!

The girl used to be cheeky, happy, easy going and stress-free.

As she grows, she gets a higher view, seeing more of the world, she sees more things in life.

Different issues, scenarios around that do not just confined or involved the few people but many.

Things do not just end like a full stop but continues...

The more she knows, the more she's aware, the more cautious she is. The fear is developing.

Subconsciously, she limits herself, choosing not to be involved, choose to stay in her comfort zone and just stick to the old ordinary way of life.

That's probably the reasons, the girl is getting more reserved. The smile on her face lessened.

She knows that the journey in life is indeed not just on a smooth tar road.

She will learn one day, mentally and physically prepared, with the right attitude and skills, stepping out and walk through the slopes, hills, mountains, ocean.

Food is my love

Exam is around the corner. I should start on my revision instead of baking, but I enjoy baking more, maybe I should have take up patisserie. My baking interest slowly develops since I came Melbourne, more or less is due to my dear roomie and cousin who have similar interest :)

On this friday --> Vanilla Cream puffs

Look at the mountain hill of cream puffs!! Bringing them to friendsgathering tomorrow.

Oh,cream puff, you are tempting, you are attractive, you are so gonna be gone soon!

The one overloaded with vanilla whipped cream. A sinful treat.

On this Monday --> Cherries cheesecake brownies.

Specially made for the special one.

See the resemblance to a character ?

On last friday ----> steamed egg cake 鸡蛋糕

Suppose to be spreaded with kaya. Substituted with jam instead.

The cake didn't turn out well, didn't rise much :( I miss the ones at Ipoh Oldtown Coffeeshop.

Spongebob dribbling bloody saliva ?

Am I too rigid and inflexible?

I want to change to a better person so so much but I find it hard.

I want to move on but why is it so difficult.

People have move through this garden, went pass the dark tunnel and found the light through to the other garden. Why am I still wandering on this flat ground.

I've never thought this would happen, I always thought nothing will influence me so much and I can do if I have the determination.

However, things seems to be different.

I know I made the decision, I bear the consequences. What happening could be karma.

I'm silly, reserved, sensitive and traditional.

I've never been the kind that let the feelings show.

Cupcakes, it's quite common for birthday celebration nowadays.

Firstly, it's pretty and cute =)

Secondly, it's easy to share (need not cut and crack your head how to divide your round cake for all)

Roomie and I baked this mini cupcakes for my cousin's birthday. The fondant letters are the hardwork of roomie, so pretty.

We really loved and enjoyed baking. So glad to meet you roomie =D

Always keep in mind our dream and plans alright, and we shall really look into it in the later years.

Enjoy the photos. Hopefully one day I can bake for you =)

The man and lady, but i know it loook more like a baby with winky eye and aunty.

When the last tear drops falls, I will stand tall.

But, when will it be the last tear drop.

Green pea cookie

The CNY cookie. The CNY ambience. The CNY mood. The CNY gatherings. I'm missing all of them now. February seems far far away and long long to go. :(

CNY also means that I can be at home, with the ones I loved.

It's also the time my brain can rest everyday..heheee..the brain just have to work a little while gambling... hehehe

Back to the watak utama of the post 青豆饼.

Cookie balls ready to bake.

Tiiiing! Cookies done. Cracks all over that can't be fixed. Looks not good but taste good =)

Made three love shaped ones for myself and two housemates.

love them.

Random song

那滑雪之旅启发了一个在生活里应有的精神。

我跌倒了，都得花不少力气再站起来，我已经很累，觉得好难把自己撑起，在那时侯我就想起，

如果跌倒了，就要自己爬起来， 无论多艰难，多险阻，都要设法站起来，继续向前走。

跌倒了，没人可帮忙，只能靠自己，靠自己的一双手，一双脚，再爬起来。

如果不努力加油，就会停留在那，看他人一步步地前进。

我就紧记跌倒了一定要自己爬起来，一定要再站起来。

生活里有喜有悲，虽然在这时候悲，可是没关系，过了一阵子，开心的日子也会到。 如果没有悲，也就不会察觉到快乐幸福的存在。

有一种爱叫做放手，

有一种爱叫做拥有，

有一种爱叫做霸占，

有一种爱叫做同情。

事情就不是那么简单。

我在想可以一天不落泪吗？应该不可能，因为打瞌睡就会流泪， 太开心笑时又落泪，还有再做某某事时也落泪，搞成别人常问我发生是么事。 =P

Yipeee, heading to Mt Buller tomorrow with roomie and friends. My first snow boarding trip =D

It's quite a high risk activity, but it is one of the risk that you must take at least once in life. God bless to all.

Down with a slight runny nose too. Hopefully it don't get worst, I don't want to spread the germss! Looking forward to Spring!

I like to think.

Think of alternatives, think of the many possibilities, think and analyze the fact.

Thinking too much is definitely not a good habit.

Think too much, think unnecessarily, damaging so many of my brain cells, using so much of my energy.

I like to imagine and guess.

Imagine that this could be the one, that is merely a story.

After a period of time, I will wake up from my dream, I will finally realise the actual fact, it is not a story. It's just me who think too much, who put the facts into story. Heart will then sink to the lowest point.

This does not just happen once. It happened many many times. Disappointment always. I should not create hopes, should not think that there's hope, no hope no disappointment.

I think too much but in actual it is just what it is, simple and straight forward.

Dont know = Dont have to think = No hope = No disappointment.

In need to talk to my mom, been some time since we have a long chat.

Yes, I can do it, let's finish up my work asap and then I can talk to her. =D

Mommy always says, she is applying the law of attraction to help me with this n that whenever I'm putting off her ideas or saying this and that will not work.

I must say I need to believe that law of attraction works.

Our mind control what we are going to get. Positive attracts positive. Negative attracts negative. This is not the same as ions and electrodes =P

I must be positive! Be confident on the power of positive thinking. Keep myself away from negative thoughts. Then my life will be better =D

The group I joined last year just had a muscial 'Crimson Spring'. One of the things that I like about the musical production is that the musical is not only for entertainment and amusement, every year's musical have theories reflecting the realities in life. Last year's musical 'The Puppets" telling people not to be a puppet that is tied down, not to be controlled by others.

This year's musical revolves around few themes of isolation, sacrifice, politics, desire and family.

There are some dialogues from the musical that I would like to share. Oh it's not dialogues, it's actually monologues, which was expressed by the main casts after the climax point.

事情不是你想像那么简单。 Things aren't as simple as you thought.

世上没有一生的事情。There's nothing that last forever.

如果我还是和以前一样，那不就一点成长都没有。

I will not grow and learn if I'm still the same person as before.

Okay, change of topic.

I'm feeling so dry these days. Dry lips, dry skin. I see flaky skin on my face.

Been trying to drink more water and yet still feeeling dry. Should put more more more moisturiser but I'm always lazy.

The emo devil please stay away from me!!

Sometimes,

I want to say..but the words always not being delivered.

I want to do..but the actions always not being shown.

I belongs to a minority group of people, but I wished I can move out and enter another category.

True feelings or mere perception will ever continue to struggle.

Who can draw a line for me?

Food again.

My post is on food once again.

Food lover am I?? or dessert lover??

You can easily guess that's true from my size.

Fatt Koh (prosperity kuih) or Smiling cake - reason as a successful one smiles and opens up nicely =D

This is not the original Fatt Koh as what normal people will thought of in their minds. It's not white with pink strips, the original Fatt Koh, which is usually used for praying. The taste is different too.

I saw this Fatt Koh in a food blog which uses gula Melaka and looks interesting so i decided to try the recipe. Moreover, I like the gula Melaka.

Overall, I'm satisfied and happy with how the cake turned out in appearance, but taste wise, i still think that it can be more fragrant. Ammendments needed.

Childhood favourite food

Lately, I'm browsing through food blogs in particular on the kuih category.

Being away from home and missing the relaxing moments on holidays back then or times when I was younger, motivates me a bit on starting DIY, cook/bake.

Well well, I craved for a lot a lot of local Malaysia snacks and kuih, but I want simple recipes.hehee. Thus, too complicated ones, crossed out, and finally made this Steamed white cake or '白糖糕'.

After making this, then I realised the ingredients is only rice flour,sugar,yeast,pandan leaves and oil. I remember my mom or dad used to buy them from the market and it will be sitting on the dining table for me as breakfast =D

Steamed rice cake attempt succeed!

Tomorrow, gula melaka 'fatt kohh'.

Photo of the day.

Photo of the day.

Long hair. Family. Wide smiles. Sunshine.

My loves.